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Sunday, August 24th, 2003
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oh i remembered the other thing im sick of...
songs.
i cant feel strongly for any piece of music now...i can just go 'oh that sounds nice' but i cant like anything alot nowadays...
im getting unfeeling...i look at my whole list of songs and dont feel like listening to any...no i dont hate them but i dont want them either... sigh~ so meaningless
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| Time: | 4:56 pm. |
| Mood: |  confused. |
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heyhey i havent written here for lets see...very long!
haha cos i got sick of coming online...decided i made better friends with my TV set...anyway at that time reading ljs, blogs was so pressurising...wats the pt of getting myself into a bad mood when i dont necessarily need to? it just gets more and more depressing...hahaha nowadays things are lighter i spose...for me at least... doesnt seem so for our sec ones...considering they get so worked up abt online stuff...always happens doesnt it...the flaws of the internet~ and online blogs...
tis this snr-jnr thing...this rgssb thing...shall not expound upon it...not worth it...everyone knows abt it and everyone just gets more and more depressed with it... its a baggage we do hafta carry if we're in rgssb...tradition... okay...DO NOT TALK ABOUT THAT...not worth it...very sensitive topic... just touching upon it as i have done might earn me some comments alredi...
certain opinions are not to be published online lest they incur public disdain
haha i dont know whether im using correct vocab...just sorta make sense in a way only la
band is rather a terrible topic to talk abt
lets talk abt my lousy academic life then
basically, i am failing geog, i doubt my sub combi, but on the other hand i know i couldnt survive with lit...i just wonder abt big hist...tho i think there wasnt a small geog choice
okay ya basically im failing abt all my tests and this semester i think i cant even get an A for my chinese, which is the saddest thing of all...and i think i might stay in sec 3 next year! wow!
absolute winner
then irs...nobody really cares...just tt this year i'll just get 'poor' for everything BUT that doesnt matter
SIGHHH
AND im UNDERWEIGHT...i spose that isnt surprising tho...i hafta put on 5.4 kg... been stuffing myself and currently im still 46 -_-
which is like great. im even sick of eating.
basically getting sick of everything...canteen food...junk...nothing much left to interest me anymore...
at least mr oura's bringing in new songs~ ah~
i insist that i do not decide whether i lke a song solely based on my score cos then i wouldnt like basically all scores existing lah...
proof: i like Danzon...of which my score consists of crochets and quavers. STRICTLY. with no more than 2 diff rhythms. like it cos it's exotic haha
i like rhapsodia...nothing much of the score...very tiring...and crystal hated it...
BUT: i do not like czardas and celtic i think they're absolutely disgusting whilst everyone else loves them~
i spose my liking for a song depends on my mood when i first played it...first impressions count alot...attraction is but plus ions attract negative ions (or isit the other way round) its very subjective...
continue crapping man~ but i gotta finish irs so tata~
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Friday, August 15th, 2003
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| Time: | 10:45 pm. |
| Mood: |  awake. |
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Some Say
Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you its only seed
It's the soul afraid of dreaming,
That never learns to dance
And the soul afraid of waking,
That never takes the chance
It's the one, who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying,
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
When you feel that love is only
For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose
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| Time: | 7:14 pm. |
| Mood: |  blank. | | Music: | nothing...er just keep me away from stuff with *beep* solos?. |
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was just reading her blog just now...
contemplating how amazing it is for pple to be totally different online as compared to normal life, but i spose u still cant change your character however diff u may be online...
i spose in this sense the internet is a sort of virtual reality whereby u live as u want to and u dont haf to worry abt other pple -in a sense-
well but it doesnt really matter whether someone typed ur blog's url does it? i mean like...all those blogs are linked?? if u find one of them you find the whole grp of them... which is why i could never figure out why pple who wanted to keep their privacy actually had links but i spose as crystal said, there is no privacy online...so why bother abt url? big diff.
she sounds really troubled...and i really wanna know why...and no in this case its not becos im k-po...i really care and want to know...i wanta know that im not the one causing all the trouble and i wanta *hopefully* help...tho most of the time i just make things worse dont i? well but still...my ironic life *decrees* that i shall worry abt those pple related to the person i ever hated most
ironic, sad. i tried to shake it off it wouldnt work...so i continue worrying abt those few pple perhaps even more than my 'own pple' maybe they're not worth my attn... need my life just be abt them? but im ever so worried im afraid history will repeat itself im really scared! and their characters and situations arent helping at all...they're just pointing to the higher possibility of it repeating...
im worried and im scared and i dont know what to do...i wish she would talk to me...but is tt possible? near never. its hard to get her to even open her mouth.
up to now i've lead this year happily spose i just read too many sad entries today. i know i made a mistake. depression is contagious. and stoning band pracs suck.
i still like my bouncing flower...
teenage hormones sigh. curb ur cynicism darlink. u noe very well someone will cry if you ever do die. so stop saying that if u just die the next day nobody will care. cos somebody will.
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Saturday, April 19th, 2003
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| Time: | 8:24 pm. |
| Mood: | blank. | | Music: | PERSIS (t). |
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hmm alright lets see it's been nearly four months from my last entry...arent you surprised to see me now... hmm i wonder if my section batch still comes here...all em got blogs and whatnot...well...lets see...four months...thats a lot to write...but i dont feel like it blah
shall just talk about this week that i came back to school after closure for SARS...hmm i realised that i actually became quite mild after one week at home...i actually dint scream at anyone after a particularly squished band prac on tues...arent you amazed hahaha...yukit is dumb yukit is weird yukit is boliao...after so many times i implicitly explained that since i dont write in my lj anymore she shouldnt put a link to it in her blog...but there the link stays...sighh...
hmm im sad...not so much to become depressed since im mild alredi haha...but still...hmm...i see a lot of problems but i dont know what caused them and i dont know how to solve em...just makes me feel stupid...and upset cos im helpless...hm. dunno what to do...
oh well...all is as it is...school has started again and there i go thru the sec 3 torture chamber again...oh dont remind me sc 4's gonna be worse...i dont need that reminder right now...
oh well yup next wed is rj concert yay so exciting...cept that i dont feel like wearing band u...much worse...dont force me to braid my hair...waste so much time and it turns out a mess...please...and next fri im going for physics test and maths seminar. so. hafta take su can (my jnr) on mon...nvm she and rachel (altosax jnr) can have a nice little interaction while we have sectionals for 1 hr...blah this is so boring...luckily my jnr doesnt have third lang no nothing...like me...everyday very free one hahaha i think my tuition teacher is dying cos i havent seen her for a few months alredi haha dunno la too busy and lazy to bother to get her to come anyway most of the time when i DO get her to come she always wont make it. so. not entirely my fault...
yl counted. my class has had 4 ss lessons so far...wow. one in each month...and since we can miss first 2 blocks on thurs we'll be missing ss again...unless we wanna come for first block...but no thank you...hmm making up for four months by writing an extreme load of rubbish...bet no one will read it anyway...find reading blogs very tiring...hmm running out of things to write about....
hmm...lets see...walking in the wet outdoors reminds me of yn and la salle and snails and philwinds and shumin and xiaohan and the squished car which we almost couldnt close the door to...and thinking about 'websites' reminds me of yl and my group and stupid brainless sec twos (nope it doesnt include band jnrs)...and bees remind me of yvonne and her bee...poor bee tho...she's leaving after term 2...um for U i spose...these kind of memories are what make me happy and what make me...well, me...
oh...abt my extremely super lan msn...this afternoon it took 20 mins to sign me in...now i've been here almost 2 hrs and im still not signed in ...what kind of rubbish is this...yup so everyone in my contact list has been complaining that i havent been going on...what does it matter anyway~bored~bored~bored~ ooh msgplus is cool =) but i cant get my contact list to go translucent hmph
hmm msn still hasnt signed me in and im very bored~ nvm think i've crapped enuff so i shall leave...maybe come back in another few months?? ^_^ take care everyone~
-constructed in extreme boredom-
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Monday, December 23rd, 2002
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| Time: | 4:07 pm. |
| Mood: |  bouncy. |
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Merry christmas everyone! =)
Have fun =)
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Sunday, November 10th, 2002
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| Time: | 9:59 pm. |
| Mood: | screaming. |
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this sucks. it's eviiiilllllllllllll. yuck.puke.sheesh :P
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Sunday, October 13th, 2002
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oh yea my sis got measles...
so
dont
come
near
me
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thick-skinned pple...haha
oh yea...im finally back =p
haha i dint come for 1 month alredi
=p
yea dun like u dun want to tok to u liao
bye
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Friday, September 27th, 2002
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its such a evil world!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i hate stine and yengling!!!!!!!!!!!!
how can tghey be so eveeeeeeeeeeeeellllllll!!!!!!!!!!!
how can!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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Saturday, September 7th, 2002
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yesterdae night a storm was brewing
there was a dog downstairs barking away
and in case u dont alredi know, i live right next to a hill
there used to be this pack of dogs i dont know how it came abt...they used to wander ard the neighbourhood by themselves
then they moved into a pack and went to live in the hill
but recently, they've been coming out
and tt dog last night
was barking loudly
to chase off a man and his dog...
is it the instinctive animal territory thing?
but it is a timid dog
to think that the barking amounts to nothing
cos he just ran away as fast as his legs could carry him when the man ran with his dog to chase him off
then he went to hide in the trees as the rain started coming down
the barking amounting to nothing...only makes it sadder doesnt it?
trying to chase off intruders, trying to put up a brave front when u really are scared
being chased off
not having security, a proper home...
how is it like?
i even wonder whether they can keep warm when storms like these rain non-stop...it's still raining right now
i wonder too how they get food
they dont exactly look like a bag of bones, but they naturally arent well-fed either...
mabbe they try to scavenge food from the restaurant on the hill
-oh well-
dunno how to continue...
but...
a dog barking away at night whilst a storm is brewing...doesnt it even vaguely remind u of Signs?
hahahahahahahahahahahahaha
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Friday, September 6th, 2002
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Subject: FW: professionals
Three Accountants
Three accountants were in the urinal performing their morning
constitutional.
The first accountant finishes and walks over to the sink to wash his
hands. Very carefully. He uses paper towel after paper towel and ensures
that
every single spot of water on his hands is dried. Turning to the other
two other accountants, he says
"At Arthur Anderson, we are trained to be extremely thorough".
The second accountant finishes his task at the urinal and he proceeds to
wash his hands. He uses a single paper towel and makes sure that he dries
his hands using every available portion of the paper towel. He turns and
says
"At Ernst & Young, not only are we trained to be extremely thorough but
we are also trained to be extremely efficient".
The third accountant finished and walks straight for the door. "At KPMG,
we don't pee on our hands".
The Engineer Joke
There are three engineers in a car; an electrical engineer, a chemical
engineer and a Microsoft engineer. Suddenly the car just stops by the
side of the road, and the three engineer look at each other wondering what
could be wrong. The electrical engineer suggests stripping down the
electronics
of the car and trying to trace where a fault might have occurred.
The chemical engineer, not knowing much about cars, suggests that maybe
the fuel is becoming emulsified and getting blocked somewhere.
Then, the Microsoft engineer, not knowing much about anything, comes up
with a suggestion, "Why don't we close all the windows, get out, get back
in, open the windows again, and maybe it'll work!?"
British Airways
"This is Captain Sinclair speaking. On behalf of my crew. I'd like to
welcome you aboard British Airways flight 602 from New York to London. We
are currently flying a height of 35,000 feet midway across the Atlantic."
"If you look out of the windows on the starboard side of the aircraft,
you will observe that both the starboard engines are on fire. If you look
out
of the windows on the port side, you will observe that the port wing has
fallen off."
"If you look down towards the Atlantic Ocean, you will see a little
yellow life raft with three people in it waving at you. That's me your
captain,
the co-pilot, and one of the air stewardesses. This is a recorded
message."
MAS airline
Passengers on a MAS flight heard this announcement from the captain:
"Ladies and Gentlemen, I am sorry to inform you that we have lost power
to all of our engines and will shortly crash into the ocean"
The passengers were obviously very worried about this situation but were
somewhat comforted by the captain's next announcement.
"Ladies and Gentlemen, we at MAS have prepared for such an emergency and
we would now like you to rearrange your seating so that all the
non-swimmers
are on the left side of the plane and all the swimmers are on the right
side of the plane"
After this announcement all the passengers rearranged their seating to
comply with the captain's request. Two minutes later the captain made a
belly landing in the ocean.
The captain once again made an announcement:
"Ladies and Gentlemen we have crashed into the ocean. All of the swimmers
on the right side of the plane, open your emergency exits and quickly
swim away from the plane. For all of the non-swimmers on the left side of
the
plane, THANK YOU FOR FLYING MAS."
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Thursday, September 5th, 2002
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| Time: | 10:22 pm. |
| Mood: | upset. |
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oh please...
come on...
it cant...
*cries*
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blah~
yea i know it's published on the net for all to see...
but still...
is it right?
my beliefs are still holding me back...
but after so many times that my privacy has been poked into...*glare*
heck. nobody would care.
i still think the proper way would be to ask
a three-letter word...but how many can actually understand it?
alright...so i myself have done what i hate others to do sometimes
but at least i try my best
so perhaps people havent got the same beliefs as me
but i still think it's disgusting anyway
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Tuesday, September 3rd, 2002
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erm ya so anyway...
nebula= star dust...
cool eh?
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so yup...went out for only awhile...met this guy from my old class
he totally lost face...
so embarassing
so he was going to the court to play badminton and got chased off by a little boy who's 1/3 the size of him
but nvm...lets just say he was nice...
but then later he returned with his mum
and his mum was yelling abt sth...there are 2 courts since u're only using one should let others use the other...sth abt gov...
blah so yea
what do u think of this guy now?
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hmpf...no fun one...
blah and i went to infer too much...
i dun care anymore
anyway...smile!
cos its exam break.
blah...mugmug
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Saturday, August 31st, 2002
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Friday, August 30th, 2002
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i think my cough's becoming chronic...
ahh...eitheer that or im getting old
i cough very easily nowadays...esp at night...
blah...it never used to be like that
and the sickness where this cough originated was i think abt 1 or 2 months ago already?!
haii
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be happy, everyone.
It's the hols! =D
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